The past few weeks this blog has been running on fumes as they would say. It’s like I’m driving along and the gas tank is almost on “E” but I can’t convince myself to take the time to stop and fill it up even though it would probably be the best long term decision.
It’s incredibly easy to get into the habit of “I don’t have time for that.” When I did a quick Google of the phrase “I don’t have time” the majority of links were advice for those people that have to do cold calls. There was one little gem “Don’t Tell Me You Don’t Have Time”. It sums up my feelings on the matter entirely and reminds me of how guilty I am in this situation.
It’s not that I don’t have time. I have just made the choice to not prioritize writing this blog over doing other things in life – and, the big culprit is time. Next week I am heading to Scotland where I will be in quarantine, where I won’t be going to an actual job, and where I don’t have a very long to do list of projects for both myself and to help out my family. As this blog is portable it makes sense for me to prioritize things that I can only physically do while I am in Vermont and get them done, right?
That doesn’t make any sense. I have written quite extensively on my want of a career of some sort to call my own. I’ve taken steps to create a basis for career fulfillment – through this blog, and by starting to take online courses to apply for a new job onboard. And, instead of prioritizing these things at all to work towards my own long-term personal goals I have moved them down my list and done them at a lackluster level for weeks on the guise of, “I don’t have time” and “I will have more time once I am in Scotland.”
The next time you catch yourself saying, “I don’t have time” think about what you are actually saying. Is it that you just don’t want to and it feels less hurtful to say you don’t have time? Maybe it’s that you are choosing to prioritize other things. Either way, it’s not that you don’t have the time.
I am a work in progress and I have been guilty of this in the past and I’m sure I will be guilty of this in the future. But, for the things that are important you can always find time. It’s just a matter of reprioritizing, regardless of if I will have more time (read: less other things to prioritize over it) to work on things in Scotland, doesn’t mean I should put them on hold while I’m here.
In the meantime I think I will enjoy this absolutely beautiful day.